I have mixed feelings about the show More To Love.  I watched it for the first time tonight after Family Guy and after NYC Prep.  My Tuesday nights are getting way too exciting

There is something that really annoyed me about the show and I can’t put my finger on it.  Any of your thoughts, insights and opinions are wanted!  I don’t think it’s the premise, because I watched the show.  Maybe it’s the guy whose dating the girls?  Like, there is something about him that annoys me.  He seems really sweet and kind.  Maybe it’s the double standard between men, women and weight.  Here’s this guy who is overweight but he seems to be like the “Prince” to all of these broken women.  Tonight’s episode he hosts a Prom for the women – and so many of them started crying about how they never went to Prom or had awful Prom experiences, etc.  I was glad they were able to re-live their experiences into a better one, but on the other hand, I just feel like there’s such a double standard.  These women open up about how broken they are and how they haven’t had good experiences with men because of their weight, but what about him?  Does he really think he is like the God-send to these women?  That he’s the hottest thing since sliced bread?  He’s not unattractive, but I don’t think he has the looks OR personality to give him the golden key to these women’s hearts.  Personally, I think these women can do a lot better.  Maybe it will make sense when I see him with the one he ends up with at the end of the show, but at least tonight, something about it felt unbalanced.

Even though I have struggled with weight, I don’t necessarily feel like I have missed out on my life.  Although, I am glad I am solving my issues with weight while I am still young!  But I went to Prom, always had a lot of friends, crushes, etc.  I haven’t dated dozens and dozens of people, but I have been in love and in a serious relationship – and that relationship’s demise had nothing to do with my weight – we simply weren’t a good match.  I now know, being in a healthy minded place, I wouldn’t choose to date the same person again who had unhealthy habits – but I didn’t fall into this relationship, or fall in love, because I didn’t think there would be anyone else for me.  It has been very ironic that I was in a relationship 80 pounds ago, but now that I am fit and healthy and happy, I have been single for 2 years!  It’s so ironic!  And sometimes frustrating.  But overall, I also know I don’t settle and don’t plan on settling for any less than I deserve, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Actually, the one part of the show tonight that I totally felt a ping in my heart about was a scene where the Bachelor and his date go horseback riding.  He makes some comment like, “I hope the horse can handle my 300 pounds!”  In another scene, the girl says something akin to, “I was glad the horse could carry me, I don’t know why it wouldn’t, it carries carts!”  I definitely thought, “awwww, I know that feeling.”  People don’t realize how being overweight really impacts these daily moments in life.  I remember when I was at Disneyland, I was nervous to get on the roller coaster.  I had all this anxiety in my head that the bars wouldn’t close.  It wasn’t even like I was on a TLC show and couldn’t leave my house!  But just being so aware of my weight caused me to be anxious about something as simple as going on a roller coaster.  I still find myself catching my thoughts, but they are fewer and farther between.  Now, I am excited to do physical activities because my body is turning into that of a more “normal” person.  I can’t wait to go horseback riding, zip line in Costa Rica and go whitewater rafting again.  The last time I went whitewater rafting was 80 pounds ago, and that life vest was really uncomfortable!  And I recently went to Six Flags and had a great time going on the roller coasters and not worrying about those stupid safety bars!

Anyway, that’s my rant about this show.  I felt glad that they were highlighting Plus Size women (and a man) as people who deserve just the same amount of love and commitment as anybody else.  That’s the bottom line – everyone deserves love.  I still go back to that I think a lot of these women – especially if they lost weight and felt better about themselves – could do so much better than this guy.  I think they like the attention from him – feeling loved for the first time – and I go back to the first time I felt loved by someone, and overweight or not, it’s a feeling everybody deserves.

This is from my blog Live Life To The Fullest