http://livelifetothefullestblog.com/2009/08/11/745/ My Journey Through Weight Loss Surgery. Inspiring People To A Life Of Health & Humor Sun, 03 Jan 2010 01:32:01 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.com/ http://livelifetothefullestblog.com/2009/08/11/745/#comment-459 Jillian Wed, 12 Aug 2009 23:35:25 +0000 http://livelifetothefullestblog.com/?p=745#comment-459 I'm down 56 pounds right now after my banding 2/20/09. I have the same feeling when I look at pictures of myself from Christmas and New Year's Eve. I am just appalled at what a mess I was. My step-mother put it especially well when she saw some older pictures of me. She said that when I was that big she didn't realize but now that I'm much smaller it's hard to believe how big I was. I always thought of myself as not looking fat and that kind of scares me because I don't find myself fat now but maybe I'm as delusional as before. I will say that I am still too scarred to go back to Six Flags. Last summer I had to do the walk of shame off of a ride and even though I know that wouldn't be the case no I still can't face it. I’m down 56 pounds right now after my banding 2/20/09. I have the same feeling when I look at pictures of myself from Christmas and New Year’s Eve. I am just appalled at what a mess I was. My step-mother put it especially well when she saw some older pictures of me. She said that when I was that big she didn’t realize but now that I’m much smaller it’s hard to believe how big I was. I always thought of myself as not looking fat and that kind of scares me because I don’t find myself fat now but maybe I’m as delusional as before. I will say that I am still too scarred to go back to Six Flags. Last summer I had to do the walk of shame off of a ride and even though I know that wouldn’t be the case no I still can’t face it.

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