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I weighed myself this morning for the first time in several days, and I am very excited to say that I’m officially down 75 pounds!  My goal is to be down 80 by January 15th – and if I make it, I will be really thrilled.  But I’d at least like to get as close to that goal as possible.  The good news is that through the holidays, I’m still remaining on track.  I’ve been pretty good about all of the holiday festivities.  As I said in a previous post, my bit splurge was having some of my mom’s cheesecake.  The best EVER!!!  Yesterday we had a holiday party at work, and it was enjoyable to be there to be with  my co-workers and not so much the food.  Although, a lot of the food looked awesome!  The support of my co-workers is really cool, some of them even check out my blog, and I think that is so nice.  

Today my family (mom, dad, grandma, sister, brother-in-law and baby) all came to the High to see the our new (and amazing!) First Emperor exhibit.  I grew up with my family taking my sister and me to the High Museum, but it was totally fun to take them today now that I work there.  I kind of felt so grown up, haha.  It was a very fun day.  Except we had lunch afterwards at Table 1280, and my Lap Band acted up when I was eating my burger.  It was just the meat part, no bread, and I ate maybe 1/3 – 1/2 of it and then I just felt so much restriction.  I don’t think that I ate too much, but I don’t think I chewed by meat well enough and I had to run to the bathroom to throw up.  Kind of sucked that my parent’s paid for lunch that went to waste, haha, but sometimes you just gotta give in to the band!

I’ve been listening to Coldplay a ton lately.  All of their CD’s.  Coldplay is one of those bands that can either be reflective and beautiful or vulnerable and depressing, just depending on what state your head is in at the time of listening to them.  The weather is cloudy today.  I’ve been really missing being in a relationship lately, and I’m trying to not let that get me down.  I’ve had feelings for some people this year, but nothing that I wanted to take to the next level.  I know that someone amazing will come into my life again at the right time, I just have to remain patient!  And I am not good at keeping patient!  I have to keep the main focus on me.  Seeing my sister and brother-in-law and their baby *really* make me want a family one day.  New Year’s Eve is approaching, and I think about the place I was in my life that time last year, and there have been so many positive changes since that time, of which I am so proud of.  Oh, this NYE I’ll be in New Orleans, which is going to be so much fun!  With 2009 just around the corner, I am looking great.  I have a great job.  I have great people around me.  I guess I’m just itching to meet that next person in my life who will sweep me off my feet  - but I don’t want to do the whole online dating thing (not that there’s anything wrong with it).  I just want to meet someone again the organic, old-fashioned way – I know, that’s sooooo 90′s of me!  You know, the old way – through a friend or through some mutual shared hobby.  I guess when it’s the right time, it’ll be time.  I’ve just been thinking a lot lately about what I want in a person in my next serious relationship, as I have grown so much and know more of what I’m looking for and deserve.  

I am very excited about my life and what this New Year will bring for me.  I have to keep working hard at losing my weight and being healthy, and again, keep the focus on what I do have in my life, not what I don’t have.  And when the time comes for my heart to be open again toward love, I know it’ll be the right person at exactly the next right time!  Until then, I’m keeping positive and reflective and hopeful.  My heart is heavy with all of the love that I have to give, while my body is 75-pounds lighter.  It’s a metaphor worth appreciating…