“Good love is on the way
I’ve been lonely but I know I’ll be okay”
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“You might have your reasons
But you will never have my rhymes.”
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“I’m in repair
I’m not together,
But I’m getting there”

-John Mayer

What the hell do these John Mayer lyrics have to do with weight loss? Well, I’m not sure, but somewhere in my heart they’re all tied together. It’s been a jigsaw of a year. I’ve been putting a lot of pieces together, and I know there’s a beautiful picture to be designed. Not all the pieces have fit together nicely. Sometimes they don’t even look great. But I know they fit in the “big picture” somehow.

It’s been 6 months since my break up. It’s been 2 months (almost) since my Lap Band surgery. I am feeling better than ever, really. Do I still get blue? Of course. Do I still revisit lots of memories in my dreams? Every night. But the truth of the matter is, I feel like my outlook on life is really awesome. I have chosen to only have people around me that are supportive, authentic, lively and dare to dream. I don’t have time for people who are skeptics. I have found some inner strength within myself that I never knew I had. I’ve been lonely many times (despite my amazing, wonderful friends and family), but I haven’t escaped into a new relationship or some new, bad habit (a la transfer addiction – drinking, excessive shopping, video games, smoking, EATING, etc.) I’ve fully faced WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY LIFE dead on. Well, the only thing I might escape into is the drudgery of how I feel this is a bad season of American Idol but Top Chef & Project Runway still rule (desiiiiiiiiiiiigners). I’m not medicating myself with bad-for-me-things or they’re-available-people. I’m not an escape artist. I’ll leave that to Houdini. When I think about what I’ve accomplished in such a short time frame, it’s a great amount. I’ve done more in these 2 or 6 months than most do in a year.

So, it’s 1:30AM. I’m listening to John Mayer. Working on my new website. I just got back from the gym, also! I did an awesome 30-minute cardio workout and lifted weights and did lunges even though it was nearly 1AM. Yesterday I went on a fabulous walk through Piedmont Park with Kathryn. And two days ago Stephen and I walked almost a mile to Arden’s Garden to get smoothies and look at bicycles. It’s been a GREAT week! And, I weighed myself today and I think I’m down to 30-33 pounds gone! How exciting!!!

I’m not 100 percent where I want to be (who is?) but I know I am on my way. I’m reading some great, positive books (Suze Orman’s “The Money Book For The Young, Fabulous & Broke” and “Women And Money” and “Made To Stick: Why Some Ideas Survive And Others Die” by Chip Heath and Dan Heath.)

So, here ya’ go. Some late-night thoughts. Just John Mayer and me. Chillin’ out. Thinking about life and love. I think it’s kinda ironic that one of his lyrics is “I’m bigger than my body gives me credit for.”

Clearly, Mr. Mayer has never dealt with a weight issue.